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Friday, December 29, 2006: Does it have to be this way?

Does my past always have to return to haunt me?

Hey, it's haunting me all right - in terms of my classes for next year.

Guess what my Cedar class is next year?

Or maybe I shan't let you guess. It's 3I.

Nice. Just look at what happens when I put the letter names of my Cedar classes for the four-year stay; I get - IPIP. Erm, hooray?

Break it up and you get "IP, IP". It's as if the thing is haunting and taunting me. IPPI; thanks so much, teachers, for reminding me. I wanted to put that phase behind me, all right?

By the way, why do we, as a cohort, have to be different?

Quoth an SMS conversation between me and my SL yesterday:

Me: [I'm in] 3I. It's not conventional, is it?
SL: Nope.
[...]
Me: It's weird; 3C, H and A are the trip-sci classes.
SL: Ya I know. Haha it doesn't matter.

Yes, Liz; it doesn't matter to you, but it does to me - a lot. Just know that it does.

Why do we have to differ from those before us?

And then, there's my French class.

Here's my response to the search results:

Class Name: I'm OK with any name.
Timing: OK, just fine. It's the normal time.
Days: Perfectly normal, normally perfect. What am I saying? They're the normal days, and they're perfect.
Classrooms: Why do we have to have two classrooms? Anyway, it's OK, I guess.
Teacher: HER again? NO ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Really, I'd have liked another teacher. My first teacher, in fact. However, be it thus; I'm still notched up against Leon, and we're now on equal ground again. It is time to truly rise up.

Oh, well - I guess I really have to try to make the best of it all. At least, in 3I, I won't be the sole Chorister anymore, with Rachel and Nandini around. However, I think the curse of the 2005-initiated cohort's P class has claimed another victim while releasing me from its grip.

And - guess what?

I've locked myself out of the E-Campus. Oh, this is great.

Signing off; I'm too frustrated to sing.

update at 5.15pm: I hacked my own account successfully! IPPI... now I think I'll send myself my new password.

Let's have tag replies to celebrate!

[21 Dec 06, 11:25] sak: it means lazy. sorry but i've taken to typing a mixture of malay and english in my blog
-> Wow - "malas" is Malay for "lazy"? OK.

[21 Dec 06, 22:31] Chinyu: lol i cant find you ahh. get another pic like maybe showing you & your friend only or smthng? haha (:
-> No can do, Chinyu - my no-uploads policy forbids it.

[22 Dec 06, 12:43] Chinyu: eh are you the one laughing or smthng one?
-> I don't intend to re-reply this here.

[22 Dec 06, 21:08] caroline: whee hee hee chanced upon your blog. hi. :D {she did a double tag}
-> Which Caroline are you? If you're the 2Purity Caroline, then - hi and feel free to browse! If you're my Immersion partner, (switch languages) salut! Bienvenue à mon journal en ligne!

[23 Dec 06, 22:49] # charis!: erm, u missed the greatest part though, u missed a lot. the part i wanted u to come and see, u left ))): [following tag] BOOO! )): [following tag] but can i invite you to church one day? (:
-> Lots to consider, Charis.

[24 Dec 06, 21:35] jazmine: hi penelope! its x'mas eve and heres wishing u a very merry x'mas ! cheers!
-> Though belated, I wish you the same - and a Happy 2007 too.

[25 Dec 06, 00:36] Chinyu: ah nvm bout it penny its alright :D {red} MERRY XMAS TO YOU :D
-> Thanks Chinyu! Merry belated Christmas and Happy 2007!

[25 Dec 06, 13:05] liyana! (:: MERRY CHRISTMAS PENELOPE! (:
-> You too Liyana - and Happy 2007! Start thinking about your subjects and how to score!

[25 Dec 06, 14:14] jiwei: heys merry christmas ! (:
-> Marry belated Christmas and Happy 2007!

[25 Dec 06, 19:13] # charis!: aiyahh! don't need consideration luhh! [: just for one dayy, take a look-see around?(: [following tag]by the way, merry christmas {red} ♥ [following tag] hope you can come on day! (:
-> Happy 2007. And yes, there's lots to consider. I'm not taking this invitation without taking Jean's.

[25 Dec 06, 20:40] CALL: haha im chinyu representing call, wishing you a merry xmas & continue supporting our blog~! heh (:
-> Sure thing Chinyu.

[25 Dec 06, 21:51] sak: joyeux noel, penny!
-> (switch languages) Toi aussi, Sak - et bonne année, mon amie!
(switch languages)

[27 Dec 06, 13:14] bubsnow: Merry Christmas :P
-> You too, Bubsnow, and Happy 2007! Remember the new route here, please!

[29 Dec 06, 16:27] sak: I checked our classes, we are in the same session but youre in F3B. different rooms for different days so you better go check.
-> I checked before posting this, but thank you for alerting me!

Singing off.

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[4:12 PM]

Tuesday, December 26, 2006: O Hostia Salutaris...

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Fortuna Dies Natalis,
Fortuna Dies Natalis,
Fortuna Dies Natalis!

Haha, did I fool you into thinking that I'd be typing out the lyrics of Salut de la Veille des O? Why would I want to?

I sang that - as in the lyrics that I typed - yesterday. I bet, however, that I'll have messed up and come up with something that's not up to my usual standard. It's excusable in this case, because I'm not fluent in Latin anyway.

Aside from this song, my Christmas was pretty much an ordinary day, save for all the messages I got on my phone and the interesting SMS-chatter I got involved in.

I shall post some memorable lines from these SMS-chats. Please note that I may not remember all the details of each message. Also, all [square-bracketed] words were not in the original messages, but were put in to give a better understanding; arrows indicate my little 'reflections'.

Here goes ~ ~

Me: ... I'd like to wish one and all a Merry Christmas and a Happy 2007. :)
(countless replies later)
Yufan: Same to u! -yufan frm nepal
-> Wow - he went to Nepal? My. (turning to Yufan) Hey, how's life there? *sound echoing off the mountains*
(turning back to blog)

Pamela: Maybe you'll get to know [your class posting] on the first day at school?
Me (inadvertently):
Me: Sorry about the blank message - it was a slip-up. I sure hope so.
Pamela: Haha. OK.
-> I'd meant "I sure hope [we will get to know the postings on the first day]", but look how the message can get lost - now when I read it, it seems as if I've half-intended to send her a blank message. Nuts :(

Me: Yeah, so you pawned [practices] - for how much, eh?
Berenice: Priceless free time.
-> This one cracks me up.

That's all the memorable stuff there is from the SMS-chattering.

Shoutout: Charis! If you really want me to go then you'll have to follow my words. Save the Scorpio intensity for Choir, please.

I'll always remember Jean Tan, always, for she is a leader's essence personified.
For that same reason, I will remember Denyse and Wan Ping.
If they are stars, I am the astronomer.
I may not be, right now, but (switch languages) je serai, si je peux. Je crois que je peux.

(switch languages) Next year is the last chance.

Singing off.

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[9:47 AM]

Sunday, December 24, 2006: Happy Birthday Li Miao!

Yes, indeed, Happy Birthday, fellow Chor1ster! May all your wishes come true - if not now, at least in the long run! Also... (switch languages) viens vite, mon Chor1ste! L'année scolaire commencera bientôt!

(switch languages) Heard of this Christmas carol?

Deck the halls with boughs of holly,
fa la la la la, la la la la;
'tis the season to be jolly,
fa la la la la, la la la la.
Don we now our gay apparel,
fa la la la la, la la la la;
Join the ancient Yuletime carol,
fa la la la la, la la la la.

Oh yes - donned we then our nice apparel.

I'm referring to my family and I; we just went for a stay at the Fullerton. It was a blast! The place is simply grand and cosy, and so was everything else about it. The clothes we wore were very fitting to the surroundings. Our stay was so great that Dad and Mom asked us to take them there in future. Sure I will.

However, I think I'd like most to book a room there and check in wearing the same outfit, but with someone else. :)

One more thing.

Dear style doctors,

You will be pleased to know that there is some change to my look. It may not seem obvious at first, but I think anyone can detect it at just one glance.

Please don't say that it's too minor; I won't shorten my school skirt, if you must know.

~Seraphine Chorister~

I wonder what Miss Chye and the Choristers will say if they happen to notice the change.

And yes, Annette, I shall answer when we meet again.

See you around; I'll be singing off.

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[4:52 PM]

Thursday, December 21, 2006: Finally.

I do believe this to be my first post in six days, is it not? Hmm. Shoot, the birthday season's already started and I didn't manage to post. Anyway I gave Sophia a birthday tag in my usual style - multilingual (no pun intended).

Frankly, I do have something to post, but I think I'll try to submit that in my portfolio. It's got to do with languages though (and I'm NOT going to copy Karen's entry; that's stealing).

I'll just do tag replies now.

[15 Dec 06, 22:05] cherise: polled.
-> Thank you Cherise. Your help's greatly appreciated.

[15 Dec 06, 22:55] louisa: hey! hahah yeah sure, i voted (:
-> Thank you Louisa. Your vote's no less appreciated than the others.

[15 Dec 06, 23:42] annett- (with hyperlink): hey! annette from choir here.. what's with saura and sopra.. haha oh well
-> Replying this query in one week's time, Annette... See you then! And I've linked you! I see you've done the same for me too; thank you!

[16 Dec 06, 10:24] # charis!: Not that we are buddies, but i just fell in love with her skinn [following tag] but the fact that we are, thats are plus point + (: [following tag] LETS JUST SAY: YOU CAN TELL WHEN A PERSON HAS GOOD TASTE :p
-> Oh... OK.

[16 Dec 06, 20:52] huiiyi: nice blogskin girl!!! u go girl!!! n i hav voted...
-> Thanks Huiyi - for your compliments and vote!! :)

[16 Dec 06, 22:23] heeai: hi penny! ive voted! hope it will be of some help!
-> Most certainly, my friend, it will help. Thank you!

[17 Dec 06, 20:28] melissa (with email): hey penelope! how're you doing? anyway i voted and dunno anyway to contact you offline so why dont you get back to me instead. haha. left my email.
-> Sending you soon, Mel... But currently depending on circumstances. Wish it didn't have to be this way though.

[19 Dec 06, 13:46] den;: hello! ahahah (: [following tag] i voted already too (:
-> Thanks Denyse. You've helped me yet again. Oh dear me - how do I repay? By working as best as I can with all the Choristers? :) I know I can.

[20 Dec 06, 17:22] Chinyu: hey penny post some photos up thr aight! i wna see how you look like recently cos i hvnt seen you for a loooooong time.
-> But Chinyu, I have a no-uploads policy; I will not upload any photos with the faces of me or my friends (or acquaintances, or enemies... you get the drift, right?) in it! Anyway I think I'll make an exception this time. Scroll down for it!

Right, so, as Chinyu requested, I'll upload a photo with me in it.

This is the most recent photo I'll upload. It's not exactly very recent, but - well, what can I say - still loving Choir 1. However, Blogger is currently NOT letting me upload it from my computer, so I'm loading from the source - Denyse's blog.

Chinyu! Try finding me here! My expression's a bit weird though, or so I feel. :X

Speaking of Choir 1 and Chor1sters, the birthdays of two Chor1sters are coming up. Just in case I have no time to wish them here, in the titles, on their actual special days - happy birthday / sheng1 ri4 kuai4 le4 / joyeux anniversaire / otanjou-bi omedetou gozaimasu to Joseph Wong and Li Miao.

Also, Ren Yan's birthday is coming up. Happy Birthday, my Sec 1 French rival. I would've liked to compete with you again this year; too bad you dropped out.

Hmm, who else? Yes, I hear you, but the actual birthday might not have been on this day. Still, Happy Birthday Jesus (though it's four days early).

Hey Chinyu, is this a satisfactory enough picture?

Signing off (if I sing now, it will wake everyone up).

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[5:12 AM]

Friday, December 15, 2006: Tag-replying time.

[06 Dec 06, 20:19] Chinyu: hey finally a new blogskin (: btw i didnt delete the links eh, its navigations now. you didt see them?
-> Thanks for pointing them out to me Chinyu!

[06 Dec 06, 21:04] den; oh hello! (: nice blogskin! <3>
-> Thank you Denyse. And how was Novabelle to you as a buddy? I'll bet she was a good buddy.

[06 Dec 06, 21:06] Chinyu: http://www.blogskins.com/info/122593 {line break} thought you might want to look at this. its a blogskin inspired by our SYF 2007 setpiece yeh? haha take a look. [following tag] & hmm, since when edwin suggested a cls gathering? i didnt hear of that tho.
-> I don't think I'll upload the set-piece skin anytime soon, but it's in a nice scheme of autumn / evening / sepia tones. Ed Ang mentioned a gathering on his blog.

[06 Dec 06, 21:34] shernice: sweet blogskin!!! hahas..hope to see ya soon!
-> Thanks Shernice! Yes, I do hope to see you soon too!

[07 Dec 06, 00:20] rg (with email):send me the pics yeah? my email is my name hehe click on it
-> Already did, Rachel.

[07 Dec 06, 18:38] # charis! (with email): send me e pic:D my mail's there.
-> Done too.

[07 Dec 06, 18:39]# charis!: choir DOESNT take u closer to heaven, knowing {supersized} JESUS {normal size} will (; [following tag] i dun wna serenade the butterflies :/
-> I know that; it was just a pun. You don't have to serenade any butterflies; it just used to say "taggy here here" where the line about serenading butterflies now is.

[07 Dec 06, 22:48] heeai: hello!! check out my blogskin too! i just changed it!
-> It's nice too. Lately, however, it seems that there's this Princess Hours / Goong craze... and that you've been hit too.

[08 Dec 06, 16:07] # charis!: OH, it a pun :X [following tag] haha, yes i clearly agree u dont use that kind plus its a demo, eg of how u shld put:D i know u just wna pust some [following tag] * put some feel into yer blog:D
-> Yes indeed Charis.

[08 Dec 06, 17:50] louisa: hahaha oh okay okay i get it now :D thanks!
-> Don't mention.

[08 Dec 06, 18:35] # charis!: can i all u PEE-NELOPE! *laughs* haha, sry (: [following tag] PEE WEE (x [following tag] ok sorry la i know u are angry :x [following tag] but i wna invite YOU! and YOU ! [following tag] to this event on 21 dec called JOINT organised by my youth grp called Revival Generation ! [following tag] will tell you more on next choir prac.! (: [following tag] thnks for e pics, [following tag] (: [following tag] shall tell you more la next tme :]]
-> Erm, nobody may call me that, much less you, Charis. Depends on my folks' words. I'll tag you when I have their response. But most likely I'll have to leave halfway.

[09 Dec 06, 18:55] sak: when will we know our classes for french next year?
-> Search me.

[09 Dec 06, 21:51] lisa: umm, puritans are a branch of christianity that do not believe in laughing, smilling, having fun, or doing anything on sundays. thankfully, they've mostly died out. [following tag] heheheh i've JUST realised what you meant by the t.a.x trio. X)) mind you i'm not JOINING them.. i'm joining the school. debate or choir?
-> Thank you for telling me, Lisa. I know better now. However, "Puritians" differs from "Puritans" by one "i". And I know you're joining the school, but it's a bit long to put into a mouse-over comment, don't you think?

[10 Dec 06, 20:04] sak: omg penny! do you understand what he is saying? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mdky-L042Dw&eurl= i feel that i should understand but im so blurrr!
-> Sorry Sak - I still haven't watched. I'll try to catch what I can though.

[10 Dec 06, 23:41] Chinyu: hey thanks anyway yea (:
-> Don't mention it.

[12 Dec 06, 18:12] louisa: thanks penelope! hahah but whoops, i dont understand some of those languages xD i do know that they all mean happy birthday though!
-> Well, you got the gist of it all. And I'm sure you had a happy birthday, right?

[13 Dec 06, 20:48] sak: hey hey! i changed my blogskin! care to comment?
-> NICE!! And it's good to hear that you made it. HOW did you?

[13 Dec 06, 21:08] liyana! (:: HAHA yes penelope you should be one of the 4 soloists (:
-> Thanks for your faith, Liyana.

[14 Dec 06, 16:57] sak: Well, basically you need to know what you want to do. Then you just find images and edit them using photoshop to make a banner or even a frame like this. Then you code using HTML/CSS. [following tag] I can help you out with base codes if you want =D
-> Thank you Sak. Hmm... I need a scanner but don't have one.

[14 Dec 06, 16:58] Chinyu: thanks for tagging call blog (:
-> No prob, Chinyu.

[15 Dec 06, 00:44] rg: hehe :P I did something naughty, I voted many many times :P hehe when I voted saura was 8 and Sopra 11 (this includes my vote)
-> Thanks for letting me know, ardent Saura supporter. I don't think I'll discount those extra votes - it they don't discount the extra votes for Singapore Idol, why should I discount this? Then again, you can only vote once in elections. Oh, dear me.

[15 Dec 06, 09:58] avery: hihi!!! yep. keep on tagging calls blog!!
-> Yes, good way to toukeepch (keep in touch).

(At this point a certain "somebody" tagged me to tell me that I seem like a smarty-pants and that I should tuck out more.)
-> Thank you for your feedback, "somebody", but I need you to tell me where it seems like I'm a smarty-pants, or acting like one. It can't really permeate all the posts, can it? And as for the school blouse issue, I'm simply conforming to the school rules - not the popular style - and loving it. On another note, if you've the courage to speak up, why not be courageous enough to leave your name? It's not like I'm going to take things out on you when we get back to school. Besides, I think the closest I've ever come to tagging anonymously is tagging with my name backwards.

[15 Dec 06, 13:52] clara: Hey, I've voted. Will ask you what it's about if i happen to meet up with you
-> Thank you for your opinion, Clara. Sure, I'll tell you if we happen to meet up.

[15 Dec 06, 17:46] # charis!: err,,,,what a weird quiz -.-
-> It's no quiz, Charis. It's a poll.

Nothing much else to post, so I have to sign off here (note the spelling accuracy). See you.

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[6:34 PM]

Thursday, December 14, 2006: I'm in a dilemma...

And therefore, I could use some help.

By clicking on the word "~Remember~", you will see this poll that I created. I need you to decide between two names to help bring me out of it. Don't tag me to ask me why or what this is connected to - or even what the names mean. I will answer such questions only if they are asked offline. Thank you for your kind understanding.

I'll be doing some tag replies soon, but not now; there's too little time.

update at 10.15pm: This is just going to be a long shoutout again.

Hey, you.

Were you really oblivious to that fact or were you just pretending? I doubt it was the former, but to be frank, I don't really care. Sending us all off in the pool at one go - is that really wise?

You told us last time that (the coach whom I usually see on Thursdays) is the Head Coach. Let me tell you one thing: you could take a leaf out of his book. When he sees that the pool's too crammed, he'll immediately divide us into groups and dispatch us accordingly. This usually happens after just one lap. How long did it take you to realise that? Three laps? Four? Or does it really take a complaint to jolt you into action?

Just to let you know, Coach, I endured a direct kick to the area between the left shoulder and neck.

I hope it doesn't have to happen again, and that I never will have to attack another person here.

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[4:51 PM]

Wednesday, December 13, 2006: Alleluia!

Or rather... (bursting into song)

Ha- *clap* -llelu- *clap, clap* -jah, ha- *clap, clap* -llelu- *clap, clap* -jah, ha- *clap, clap* -llelu- *clap, clap* -jah, ha- *clap* -lle- *clap* -lu- *clap* -jah!

(no longer singing) Haha, that was, admittedly, a little random. However, I just want to say that I SUCCEEDED!! Yes, I succeeded!

For this success, I am grateful.

First and foremost - thank you, Denyse, for your advice and help back then!

And last, though not the least, but more the most - thanks be to the Lord for helping me achieve it today! Alleluia!

Finally, I can now proudly say that I'm a Believing Mage. Now, the next thing is to keep the same state without losing it, if not picking it up again without having to use the "summoning gesture".

The following also happened today at practice - the conductor actually got four of the leaders to sing the solo part for part of When You Believe (near the end). At first she had just wanted four people - two Sopranos and two Altos nominated by the SLs - and then she asked for volunteers - and after that, all the four more prominent leaders who were there.

I remember seeing Liyana turning around and calling my name a few times over this short period of time. (turning to Liyana) Thank you, but I really felt that today really wasn't my turn. I don't really dare listen to the vox populi when they're mooting for a soloist and the leaders haven't had their turn yet; seriously, they're better, or they wouldn't be the leaders anyway. If I can, I'll try to grab the chance the next time.

However, the conductor voiced her plans to make us do this four by four and then pick the best four (for Orientation, I suppose). I seriously doubt she'll be able to get her best four from the entire choir by the time the hols are over - I mean, how many more sessions are there? - unless she plans to speed up the process by cramming 'auditions' for up to five groups of four within the same session.

Random line, though also related to Choir practice today: Out of sight - end of the sixth, or start of the thirty-seventh?

I'll be off to sing to the ~~butterflies~~ Lord now.

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[6:57 PM]

Tuesday, December 12, 2006: Happy Birthday Louisa!

Yes indeed, it's dear Louisa's special day today. May all your wishes come true today, Louisa!

And - oops - I forgot that the special day of my fellow 2Purity classmate, Xinyi, passed two days ago. Erm - happy belated birthday, Xinyi.

The ring(s) are hurting me, but I think I just might want to add one or two to my collection of (switch languages) bijoux.

(switch languages) You might ask why, but below is the only answer I'll give.

My Heart Will Go On (Titanic Theme) - Celine Dion

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you.
That is how I know you go on.
Far across the distance
and spaces between us,
you have come to show you go on.

Near, far,
wherever you are,
I believe that the heart does go on.
Once more,
you open the door
and you're here in my heart and
my heart will go on and on.

Love can touch us one time
and last for a lifetime
and never let go till we're gone.
Love was when I loved you,
one true time I hold to;
in my life we'll always go on.

Near, far,
wherever you are,
I believe that the heart does go on.
Once more,
you open the door
and you're here in my heart and
my heart will go on and on.

You're here;
there's nothing I fear,
and I know that my heart will go on.
We'll stay
forever this way -
you are safe in my heart
and my heart will go on and on...

Singing off here.

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[3:22 PM]

Monday, December 11, 2006: To a certain Sop 2 junior...

I'm not naming you here, and I most likely won't be naming any other people involved in this.

You do remember that we went to (Alto 2 junior)'s house to practice for the November auditions, right? It was then and there that, during one of our breaks, I played for you the piece that I'd made up (in spite of my low-level music background), and you suggested that I add something between the repetitions to add interest.

I'm not slamming you or anything because I don't intend to.

Today, I successfully added an intermezzo somewhere in there, and it sounds fine. However, I really don't think I'll even consider making it a fixture of the piece. I did tell you that I made it up while thinking of someone, didn't I? Well, I'd just like to say this: the interest is there, but when I play it, it breaks the momentum of the spirit and emotion that flows through me. It feels as if an army of Russian marionettes has invaded my piece.

It doesn't matter if the emotion doesn't flow from me into the original piece and into my audience; when I play the original, the emotion is inside, stirring my blood, stirring my heart, stirring my soul. With the intermezzo, the flow of emotion in me is disrupted, and hence I think I'll just stick with the original version. Thank you for the tip, though. I might want to try it again when I become as experienced as someone (not the same as the someone above) - and possibly work my grade high enough to be able to do something like Mr. Ko Matsushita did with our set piece.

Your senior, Penelope

On another note, I just discovered that my little orange lizard beanie is a fake. It doesn't matter anyway, because it reminds me of three people whom I either like or respect, or both.

Singing off. ^_^

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[6:17 PM]

Sunday, December 10, 2006: Flame of the Dies Irae

It's been burning in me ever since last night when I found out about two things. I'm going to be firing some salvos here so this post will be really charged-up. I apologise if I've hurt anyone.

First and foremost, a long shoutout to you.

You are the one who caused my flame of love for drama to freeze over, do you know that? The thought of having to be in your class at every session was too much to bear. Choreography won't get us anywhere. It only brings in money for the choreographer while the performers who have to present the dance have to slave to get the moves right, do you understand that? Of course it's easy for you to choreograph and then get us to perform, but, like, you bloody well just choreographed my batch's dance out of mid-air when you couldn't remember your initial moves. YOU DIDN'T EVEN MASTER YOUR OWN DANCE, AND YOU WANT US TO MASTER IT. Is that even fair, I wonder? I doubt you even dared to choreograph the Chingay or NDP or whatever large-scale performance that you choreographed in this I-can't-remember-so-I'm just-making-it-up fashion.

Besides, you say flexibility matters to an actor.

I say NOT.

It just has to flow through you. It's just like music. Once you understand the melody taken by your part, you will automatically feel it. No doubt stage actors have to use big actions to try to get the message across, but that can be achieved without flexibility. I CAN DO IT WITHOUT YOUR WARM-UPS; SO CAN THEY.

It's not that I dispute your professionalism or your expertise - I just think that you shouldn't have been there.

You are the one thing that caused me to quit. It's not Mr. Monitor's calling me a "crazy baboon" that forced me to quit. Speaking of the monitor and monitress, I felt that I was more mature than them back then, and I still feel so now. So what if they are popular? Mr. Monitor was immature enough to call me names.

Either way, thank you for the honour of letting me be one of the floor dancers last year. That's an honour that I'll gladly junk away with the rest of the trash.

I'm glad some of the juniors got to take part in a drama item within this year's showcase. Good for them, unlike me; I had to suffer at your hands all this while.

Now, for the second cause of my anger.

I shall only address the situation in a few lines, unlike for Mr. Choreographer.

Your superiority complex evidently has the better of you, even after so many years, or should I say, centuries. After all this time, I can't believe you still have it. You've evidently inherited it from your ancestors. Come on, people, Isabella is long gone, and so should this rotten attitude. And to think my teachers took away the drama from some of the Literature students in my level in favour of studying your situation back then. I can tell you, it was really a rotten era. So was the Apartheid era in South Africa - the South Africans were second-class citizens in their own homeland, in favour of your ancestors' descendants who are there.

On another note, return the Olympics to the Greeks, please. They should be the ones to set the standard, not you. And I don't understand why, at the Asian Games, all the names are changed to fit your format.

It's true, the second group of people were descended from the same kind of people who landed on South Africa and brought about the Apartheid.

Now that all the salvos have been fired, I think I shall leave my blogblog in peace - after this one last line.

O Salutaris Hostia, da robur, fer auxilium!

Singing off.

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[10:23 AM]

Wednesday, December 06, 2006: 为什么会这样？

Indeed, why is it all like this?

(switch languages)

每个人都希望有进展。
虽然我们有最好的＿＿，但是我却发觉我自己并没有什么进步。我好讨厌这种感觉。
经过团长的一封简讯，我才明白我在哪儿做错了。
原来，我一直都在邯郸学步。

谢谢团长的解释。我一定会尽力。

(switch languages)

Elizabeth asked me to aid Azilah, and so I stayed back for fifteen minutes to do so. It feels wasted, somehow. There was a chance to do so earlier on when Wan Ping asked us to practice in our pairs. I'm not blaming them for doing so, but Stephanie and Suet Far came over and asked to combine pairs, and so we did as instructed.

Shoutout: Azilah! If you're reading this, here's a reminder to work at it; you can do it!

Tag replies now.

[29 Nov 06, 19:04] ~Seraphine Chorister~: One more thing: since when did Rui Wen trust me so much, I wonder?
-> Usually, she doesn't trust me that much.

[2 Dec 06, 23:04] CALL: ^^
-> Huh? Hey C.A.L.L., what do you mean by this? And who posted it anyway?

[3 Dec 06, 15:18] Chinyu: haha its me ah, cos you always tag call blog so i represent call to thankyou! (: lol.
-> Oh OK. At least now I understand... :)

[4 Dec 06, 14:58] # charis!: yeah need to keep working hard...today seniors scolded me :X i feel so {superscripted} down [following tag] sorry it was suppose to be {subscripted}down [following tag] TO SEE HOW DOWN I AM. [following tag] yeah...really SAD [following tag] and mood swings, arh, terrible thing i tell u [following tag] i want thy photos! WHERE ARE THEY )):<
-> Yes you need to work hard. And I don't remember the "B" key being so close to the "P" key, do you? Cheer up. Photos are on their way.

[5 Dec 06, 12:01] ~Seraphine Chorister~: Edwin speaks of a gathering. I'm not going lest I be called extra again. Yes we all have feelings for 6A 2004, but I was turned to frost back then. I'm not stepping into a freezer anymore. [following tag] Goodbye, PCPS 6A 2004. My feelings are there, but they're not magnetic. {three-line spacing} Choir - the CCA that's closer to Heaven, because we're a Choir.
-> I tagged the first of these two tags at C.A.L.L.'s blog and Avery came back with "penelope, why u feel this way? we are all 6aians wad! dun like this! u r not extra? who says so rite?" Thanks Avery!

[5 Dec 06, 17:30] wp: hey penelope, you're linked! (:
-> Arigato gozaimasu, Wan Ping!

[5 Dec 06, 17:31] sak: ooo niceee!
-> This goes to show that I HAVE TASTE. Haha. Thanks Sak!

[5 Dec 06, 17:52] louisa: haha no it's okay but 8 days to what?
-> Right now it's six days to ~~SOMEONE'S special day...~~

[5 Dec 06, 18:07] heeai: hey i lyk ur blogskin! the border!!
-> It's all thanks to its creator! I just added a little of my own touch.

[5 Dec 06, 22:00] bubsnow: quote from Mariah Carey: 'butterfly follows me wherever I go... ' nice :)
-> AND you were saying that you forgot how to come here, eh, Bubsnow? Anyway you came, all the same. Thanks!

[6 Dec 06, 14:06] sak: yeah i know. i just think it's nice. oh and about the tags, don't worry about it =)
-> Agreed; I wouldn't have chosen it otherwise. I can be very picky (though none of my Star Signs is Virgo). Thank you for not letting the flood get to you!

I still need to improve. I really do. In addition, I need antacids.

Singing off here... off to sing to the butterflies. They will get into my stomach if I don't.

P.S. Mon amie, il y a un loupe ici! Prends soin!
note: 'ici' = here, "prends soin" = form of "prendre soin", meaning to take care.

Yes I know I'm not just sharing this with "mon amie", but the world. I had no chance to tell her though.

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[1:45 PM]

Tuesday, December 05, 2006: Unfreeze blogblog!

I know I said I'd be on hiatus, but I swapped blogskin. No matter how I tried, I couldn't make my own so I'm giving up, and this skin is nice anyway. I modified it a little, though - gave it my own touch.

Here's some info from the Skin Info page:

wwei~TheButterflyGarden
Contributed by: wwei15 on May 26th, 2006 at 1:58 am

And I'm like, wow. It was put up three days before my birthday this year! That's something.

I'll be off to serenade the butterflies now.

~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[3:14 PM]

Monday, December 04, 2006: -_- ...

Really. I do feel like that.

I only have one word for yesterday, and it's not even a word I frequently use.

Yesterday was so malu. To be precise, it was so bad that I'm going to borrow a line from the other widely-known Cedar Choir Leader: congratulate me because I had just humiliated myself and my upbringing as a __________________ (try filling in the blank if you want).

Today was just as bad.

Why me?

Dark Soprano - wings clipped, nowhere to fly;
she knows not why.
Arms outstretched, she leaps.

And lands, in a pool of blood.
A thin thread of it
trickles from her mouth.

All is still, all is calm, none have
noticed; there are no
kith, no kin to come
round and try
to rouse her.

Just one

lone

girl.

For your information, though I fit the description (the first two words), I will never take that path, but some of my brainchildren might. I don't know.

When it happens, will I even weep?

I look dark and am dark. In fact, I am a shadow of my former self - just pure, dark umbra. Why is this happening?

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Nothing is straight; nothing is right. If only saving the situation were as simple as a call of my name, but no.

For that reason, I'm going on hiatus again. Like I said the last time, I'll be back for Christmas. Or rather, I'll be back for the days before it. Lots of people I know have their birthdays then.

See you all around Yuletide. For now, though, just let me do something to my blogblog...

(writer concentrates on something between her hands, raises her quivering arms and hurls a snow-spell at this blog)
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edit on 4/12 at 8.30pm: Oh, and I forgot to wish Liz a nice trip. Now, to continue...
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~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[8:00 PM]