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Wednesday, October 18, 2006: Love.
Haha... You might say that I'm doing the Sec 3 essay, but in a less academically-styled form. Yes, "Love." was their wildcard (or rather, single-word / single-line) question.
I'll be separating the "love" part of the entry from the rest of it with asterisks.
Nothing much happened in the morning and early afternoon, save for the fact that the Level Heads mentioned today that there would only be SS/Geography available for those who were opting for Triple Science. I may not be picking it, but I feel that it's unfair; what about those who want SS/History or SS/Literature? I have a sneaky suspicion that they're trying to create the closest possible thing to a Pure Sciences stream and are trying to impose it on all who will be opting for Triple Science. Indignation in the highest!
Choir practice resumed today... I found it weird, though, to see most of the seniors leaving. My mind raced back to that scene... Elizabeth telling Steffi something...
It had had something to do with that. I won't elaborate further. (All the best, Sec 3s!)
The conductor wanted us to do sectionals after starting off, shortly after warm-ups, with the newer Chinese piece. The First Sopranos were leaderless; Liz wasn't around because of the reason that is hinted at in the above paragraph, and the twins weren't either because they had signed up for the Dreams+Teams camp. So... there went our Sop 1 SL and our Senior RP (Junior, had Xuemin stayed). And guess who was their leader? Yun Min decided to take over. Initially, however, the Sec 1s were mooting for me! But I refused; I hadn't been sure that I could get the sixteenth-notes right. Teaching the wrong thing would be... well... wrong, embarassing... whatever. Later on, however, when the sectional was in progress, I saw that their faith in me wasn't really all that blind.
Thanks a lot, Sec 1s! In that moment, a ray of warm hope touched my heart. Thank you all for it, really. I treasure every bit of friendship that I get, because of my "frostbite". Thank you, Sharanya, Jia Xuan, Charis and all of you!! I'm really blessed to have such juniors as you. Hope we can bring the choir to greater heights together!
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... and the nights were the heat of yearning.
They truly were. When I returned for Choir today, though, that fiery feeling was slowly reduced to a small flame. I felt none of the desire for it that I had felt these past few nights. Agreed with Nicole Tan, it does get draining after a while. I still love it, though.
Oxytocin. That's what brings two people closer. They love each other, even though it's not because of burning passion. The examples of this abound, but people cannot feel the love sometimes; the romantic form of love has most probably been over-emphasised. What I felt in the practice venues today was not a blazing fire in my heart, but warm, gentle Oxytocin-Love.
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So we finished the piece (albeit jerkily) and returned to the main practice venue where the conductor ended with a final run-through of the Chinese piece, followed by one round each of our Aboriginal piece and You Raise Me Up. A nice conclusion, don't you think?
In short, today was special.
Once more, thank you, Sec 1s! Thank you all for your vote of confidence, for your faith and hope in me.
~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[8:36 PM]
