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Tuesday, September 05, 2006: To a certain guy in my life...
My dear junior, Mr. Sagittarius,
You are getting to be too much. You are really getting to be too much.
Why do you keep on watching that channel when Seraphimon and Ophanimon have specifically told you not to do so?
Why do you keep on relating all those unwholesome things to us?
I have no link to such things, I shall tell you. And there is no way that you are going to change the very essence of who I am. Because if you ever do, I shall sue you until you go broke. And even more. And if you ever do manage to change me in that fashion, I shall challenge you to a fight. And we shall have a showdown, and I shall make sure that no trace of you exists from that point onwards.
I have been kind enough to downplay the bad side of you every time I speak of you to my friends and teachers. Even in that essay pinned up at the Cedar Sec 2 billboard, I tried to play up your good side. But now it seems that I can't find a way to forgive you. Not at all.
I think that what I can be most thankful for is that I am not going to be your guardian any more. I was your guardian for those first two years of yours in our primary school, and I bore the brunt of everything. In fact, I might have worsened the situation, but I gave my all and my best in being your guardian. But because of our age gap, I shall no longer have to face you - in the upcoming SYF Central Judging of Choirs, in my Sec 4 year, in my JC. I shall no longer have to face you.
According to Seraphimon and Ophanimon, however, the way you are is due to your condition. I wish that made it easier for me to forgive you. However, it does not. What you said tonight really angered me, was the spark of an evil flame, unlike other flames that burn bright with love, kindness, truth, hope and promise. Yours does not burn that way, though I wish it would.
Please. Open up your eyes to society and the people around you. Hurry, for time is running out. I fear for you, in spite of the fact that this post seems charged up with hate. I fear that you may not be able to open your eyes quickly enough.
Shall I continue to be your guardian?
Perhaps, but it isn't the most pleasant of jobs. Hopefully I can do it well. Air and Fire, as they say, is supposed to be a good combination, and according to Quizilla's Friendship match based on horoscope, Gemini and Sagittarius is supposed to be a very good combination.
I hope to make it that way, sometime soon. But the thing is, it isn't like this at the moment. It really isn't.
I shall need the help of Seraphimon and Ophanimon, but more importantly, I need you to realise. I need you to see. Just their effort alone isn't enough, what we need is really your input.
I changed my shirt tonight because we were wearing the same shirt, but I wanted to disassociate myself with you and your mind and thoughts. Blabbermouth. Chronic HVD case.
I hope to change it around.
I really do.
And I need your help.
Your senior, Penelope
~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
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