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Tuesday, August 08, 2006: Et je suis encore en train de penser.. comme il n'y a rien de plus à faire (And I'm thinking again... because there's nothing else to do)
Yes - once more in this pensive state am I...
Finally... Xuemin saw! I managed to redirect her! I tagged her and she replied on her blog. These are her replies:
xuemin: Ahh... Lol. wow mann, you write chim english! Haha. Jiayous then! xD (I think this is to my tags)
xuemin: Probably somebody up there wanted you to stay in cedar. Haha. Look at the bright side, you don't have to make a decision whether to stay or to go! (And probably this to my posts here; scroll down!!)
These were posted about an hour apart, during which time she visited the real Denyse.
Well, I'm glad that this incident's over... ^_^
And now... On a parlé encore, ma Directrice de Section et moi... et c'était encore du PI. (We talked again, my Sectional Leader and me... and it was, again, about the IP.) If I were to get in (which I doubt I have), should I stay or should I go?
Loyalty... the theme for this month - August and its loyal Lions and Virgins (Leo and Virgo? Hello?). I'm neither Leo nor Virgo, but something in my heart tells me I shouldn't go, while my mind is saying that I should go if I have the chance. My grades are plummeting after all... Yet there are... allies... friends... and also dislikers... enemies... Should I leave Cedar if I do get selected? Should I? Must I really?
Is this what being a Gemini entails... disunity of heart and mind? If so, I would wish to change my birthday, which, sadly, cannot happen.
To leave... would be akin to stopping the flow of Cedar sap within me, just a leaf on the tree.
It doesn't just run in me. I think it started coursing into me sometime in August 1991. And I wasn't even of schoolgoing age then.
Elizabeth mentioned that she had been trained only in choral singing when she came to Cedar. I think I also have something that I owe the school - my A-standard 2.4km run grade for this year's NAPFA tests, my newfound love for sports... especially running. That was probably one reason, why she didn't try... But she also cited the friends she'd made as a reason for staying.
When I transferred back then, had I thought of them? It was a self-defensive measure, but... regardless of what happened, that is in my past, the mirror of my life.
I might want to stay. Even if I do get picked. Everything's all over, and whether they notify me or not, that shall be the close to that chapter of my life story.
If I can get so far as going for the selection interview, what is there that I can't do?
It's time to bump up the revision! :) >,"
~Seraphine Chorister~ sang in The Butterfly Garden
[5:24 PM]
